I had a look. A look that deceives my sense of humilation and self pity. In me I was an animal. It waits and stares at the opposite sex. Thinks about the utter pleasure of banging into anything. I felt that was wrong. A wrong no one can correct.
I never thought that I am incapable, inefficent and insane. I am not realistic in purist term. I love to sleep in a cozy cot with a tumbler of water kept by my side. In the morning when the sunlight comes, I should not know what time it was. Yes I want to lay down and sleep. I want to see dreams. Dreams of love, sex and wealth. It is ridiculous. We call it the day dreaming. Yes. I am one in the group. A good for nothing, scum and pitiful creature.
If I see sunlight I argue about beautiful things, suffering of millions and that our government is not doing anything. If I see injustice, I dont react. I just shutup and talk about it without doing anything. If I see a goon and he threatens me I am scared. It is the life of some one who does not know what to do.
I see movies and get inspired by few of them. I believe I was the hero in that movie and I have a chance to be with beautiful heroines and I do what I am supposed to do in the movie. The thing is that i cannot do the slightest thing the guy does and forget about the movie two days after. If people as k me what I am good at, this is what I am best at. Imagining about things that never is on my way.
I have given life lessons but at the end of the day my class is still far away. In all this juncture I still believe I have not missed one thing. It is to look into myselves.
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